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Pregnancy No 2 and Hyperemesis Gravidarum

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I am sure that a few of you have noticed the unscheduled absence on my blog and social media posts of late. Though I had been talking about new exciting projects, life had other plans for me. If you follow me on Instagram you would have found out why during the Christmas period. For those who don’t follow me (and seriously why aren’t you following me??) then ……..Ta da, I am pregnant and expecting our second born in May 2019.

Not As Blissful As I Had Hoped

Although now I am stable and happy with the progress of our little bean. I will admit that the start was a nightmare. I wish I could pretend to be like all those stylish beautiful mamas to be on instagram. Telling you about how #Blessed I am and how it is such a miracle. All while posing in gorgeous figure hugging dresses and high heels. But the reality for me was that I felt and looked like death for the first 4 months. Not only had i never experienced exhaustion to the point of not being able to lift myself off the couch. But my own body was literally starving me to death. Unfortunately I was one of the lucky few that was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum.

If you followed my journey from my first pregnancy. Then you would know I suffered a similar fate with my first born. 6 months of nausea, extreme sensitivity to smells and vomiting at the time, felt like the worse thing in the world. It never occurred to me that it could be worse. To be fair a part of me is unsure if my sickness was actually worse. Or if it was made to feel worse because this time around I had a toddler to care for. I couldn’t sit and binge watch Netflix while snacking on crisps all day and napping when I needed to. All I know is that it was torture, and was one of the first times I let go of my pride and called my husband offshore to plead for help as I couldn’t cope.

More Than Morning Sickness

This time around I got to really understand how horrible this syndrome is and can be. I literally felt like my body was starving me. Everything I consumed was thrown up minutes later and the feeling of dehydration and being so thirsty was the worst I have ever experienced. I wanted water so badly but just could not keep it down. It got to the point where I woke with blood on my pillow as my lips were so chapped the skin was ripping and bleeding. Despite my stomach getting bigger the number on the scales decreased and I finally let go of my anti medication stance and went to the doctors.

While searching the internet for any bit of advice I realised just how bad it can be for some women. With some of them being starved so badly they go into organ failure and some have to eventually terminate their pregnancies. Reading some of the stories I felt somewhat blessed to not be as bad as others which helped perk me up and be grateful.

What broke my heart the most was my poor wee baby Gabriel. He began to understand very quickly that something was wrong and that I was not well enough to play and entertain him as usual. He would come and check on me, see my throwing up and would then go and play by himself for long periods of time, giving me no trouble at all.

I Am Now 22 Weeks Pregnant

Now I am 22 weeks and I thank god that it has subsided. I actually feel normal while being pregnant. Something I never thought I would experience, and can now enjoy the journey with my husband and little boy. We have decided to keep the sex a surprise for the big day and I look forward to getting back into my blog and sharing this journey with you.

Thank you to all of you who reached out and asked where I was during this time. It really meant a lot!

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Pregnancy is Not as magical as I thought

The Blog is back and I can tell you a lot has changed. I am currently 20 weeks pregnant with the mini me scheduled to pop in Feb 2016 and it cannot come soon enough. “Oh how lovely” everybody seems to be saying to me as they reach to touch my ever so itchy and growing bump, but it has not been an ‘Oh so lovely’ few months, unless you consider laying on the bathroom flooring crying with puke in your hair to be lovely.

I wish I could say that pregnancy has been this magical ‘finding myself’ journey but I just can’t. Sorry to be blunt, but pregnancy SUCKS, it really SUCKS ASS! Those gorgeous women we see on magazine covers that manage to make their bump look like an accessory to their outfit, with gorgeous glowing skin and perfect hair are liars or superwomen sent to make us normal people feel like utter crap!

“Sorry to be blunt, but pregnancy SUCKS”

Don’t get me wrong I am more than overjoyed and anxious to meet my little one but the side effects of pregnancy took me totally by surprise, I have never understood why no one seems to talk about the negative side of pregnancy.

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For some people being pregnant is bliss, look at my sister in law to be for example, when pregnant told me she didn’t feel any different, except a little bit more hungry. She breezed through her pregnancy and at the end of it was able to walk out of the hospital in her size 10 jeans!!!! WOW I thought watching her, I could easily do this!

So my plan went as follows. I’d eat super healthy, attend pregnancy Yoga and Pilates classes and be zen, continue working and building my empire until I was ready to pop, and be a fabulously dressed socialite! Hahaha what do they say, You make plans and god laughs? Yep he got me!

Eating healthy for the first 4 months was a joke, as everything i tried to ingest came back up between 5 to 15 times a day, including water! Yes seriously WATER!!!! the only thing I could keep down was junk food, I am still to attend a yoga class but as it seems every time I try to book the class I am taken over with either horrible nausea or extreme tiredness.

Continue working? There are only so many times you can vomit and pee on yourself at work without them calling you in to say ‘ Maybe we should call it quits’. Yes Pee on yourself! It happens a lot! The day my husband to be innocently suggested I start wearing nappies was the day he almost died!

“There are only so many times you can vomit and pee on yourself”

Fashionable socialite? Pleeeease, the days I am able to get out of the house and survive the many odours of people, food and shops without violently throwing up everywhere is when I am hit with extreme fatigue. My last attempt at buying clothes, my husband to be came in and found me slumped in a corner as I was too tired to continue. I still havent bought everything I need yet and I have been 3 times!

So all you women out there, struggling to look as fabulous as Miranda Kerr during your pregnancy please know you are not alone and not to beat yourself up over it. Pregnancy is hard, your body has been hijacked and there is no right or wrong way of doing it. Listen to your body, if chips and burgers is all you can keep down then by all means eat it.

Dont let anyone make you feel guilty, you and only you knows the rhythm of your body so do what you feel is right and tell everyone to BACK OFF. With all of this, there is one side effect to look forward to and that can bring a smile to my face no matter how I am feeling  – Feeling your baby kick for that brief second seems to make all the other symptoms worth it!

 

Kylie

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